Sweetheart, what a painful experience and heinous crime. I, too, adore animals and feel such empathy for you. I can only reiterate the wise words of Joseph. Take deep breaths. If you can do anything practical to instigate change via a campaign, I'm sure you will.

Our brains go over problems that hurt because we want to discover what went wrong. So, I'm sure this is happening to you right now. And the senselessness of it all doesn't help. All I can think of is to look after yourself. Rest, deep breaths, walk in the countryside, be with people who love you, and give your energy to animal friends you can pour love and help into now so you can see you make a difference.